Joy

He and I are good.
      We are great even.
We talked everything over and he loves on me more now than he did before.
                                                     I really care about this man.
                                                                        I know he cares about me.
                  He trusts me and I him.
                                            I think I am falling hard for him.

                                                                                      Oh lawd..............

Hurt

My baby left me today. He says he needs me to keep it 100 with him and I have; but he thinks I have had someone on the side.We were never official but in my heart I was his and he was mine.I didn't think I really had feelings for him like that but I am here sitting at my computer crying like I haven't cried in years. I miss him already and feel lost. I want him in my life.

In the end I guess this is a good thing hiding behind this pain. I will get over it and eventually see it for the blessing that this probably is.