Getting over it all

In conversations with my father and his current girlfriend I have realized that Fran still has a ridiculously strong hold on me and how I view myself. I decided that I need to write her a letter in hopes that it will bring closure to that chapter in my life. I know that it is holding me back to still have those feelings deep down inside of me.
I want to go beyond that and write my father, mother and grandparents. I think that my father will be the most difficult one to write of all because I still have to face him. My letter to Fran will be difficult simply because I know it will take alot out of me to dig that deep, when I have made it a mission not to express my feelings about her outside of anger and pain. I know that thereis more inside of me. Hell I might just go on a writing mission and write everyone!

As difficult as I know this project will be, I think I will come out of it a stronger more confident woman.

Babies

I have not had a period since May 24. I was very scared that I was pregnant, but I took a cheap pregnancy test and it says that I'm not. So I am not quite so worried now ya know? I already told P, he supports me with this. lol He even asked if I want him to come to the doctor with me. I think he hopes that I am pregnant since he has no kids of his own. What is so great about this little situation is that I just broke up with him. Thankfully we are on really good terms....like I don't think he gets the extent that I need to separate myself from him. I still want to be his friend but sex and relationshipness needs to go.