Forgiveness....long over due

I think about you everyday. Trust its killing me that you aren't speaking to me. Understandable since I wasn't there when u needed me the most. Please believe I beat myself up over this on a daily basis. I know it doesn't matter though so its gonna have to be ok. I am getting to the point though where I am up and beyond over it. I've apologized numerous times....even buying "forgive me" cards. And figuring out how ima get it to you. I can't apologize enough to you about it. So I'm done apologizing. If you eventually forgive me then great, if not..........fuck it. I know that's harsh but you know me. Chuck em.